A Farewell to Blogging.

This post BECAME about writing a post.

I started writing one about my day at a Girl Scout Troupe Round Up and the various discoveries I made about parenting.

Then I realized I am not a parent and shouldn't be commenting on others until I can see their perspective.

Then I tried to write about parenting with an acknowledgment of my lack of perspective. That was just...boring.

I switched topics and tried to write about a theme of conversations lately; that is, about rules and how and why people break them, who writes them, the types of consequences etc. It was long and I talked to much about my friends who I respect to much to throw their lives into the internet, especially under my analytical tone.

I tried a different shade of that topic and tried writing about the concept of "respect for authority" which quite successfully combined the better parts of the three previous posts, but I also belatedly realized that I would should define my own levels of "respect for authority" in order for the post to make any sense what so ever.

So I tried to write about that and I realized it was boring. Like, really boring. You guys dont want to read about that. You might be interesting in how I think my attitude affects my friendships I make at my Ivory Tower school, but only maybe.

Then I realized, NO ONE READS THIS ANYWAY.

and I gave up entirely.

In other words, I write for myself now. I started moving that direction by the end of the summer. This blog was supposed to be about me telling stories so I don't bug other people. It was supposed to be about writing to explore things about myself and how I felt about them.

Okay, it served its purpose. I can write and not publish from here on out.

That way, I can just say what I want to say. Without worrying about harming someone's sensibilities, or appearing narcissistic, or otherwise opening myself up to un-needed judgement.

Ill judge myself, thanks.

That sounds, grating. But its not. Im actually in a wonderful mood. I just finally got a swallow of self confidence that was so incredibly long overdue and I realized that everything I did here was for attention. No more, my friends, no more. I can keep to myself.

I may, occasionally, publish something I want commentary on, but no more "this is how I feel about this" stuff.